I’m going to hold onto this little piece of happiness as long as I can. I don’t think we can see eye to eye at all, but just let me have this. Any pain or ridicule I’ve inflicted have never been out of spite. These things happen on their own accord, and I’m sorry.
Truly I’m just straying from the path I’ve chosen, being distracted by idling thoughts along the road. Attracted to flickers of lights from the distances that I’ll never dare reach.
I’m just trying my best, if its not enough then I’m at my worst…
Don’t make any you can’t keep please, because in the end you’re hurting the other person more than anything. I guess I just didn’t matter that much right?
Out of sight, out of mind? Am I really just that sort of guy?
I really hate this feeling…
Going to the far east~ Gonna be gone for a long while, probably won’t use this tumblr anymore either. Hehe.
Later~
I don’t mind how slow or fast we go, as long as we’re able to reach our desired destination. It’s like when you go on a trip across the country to visit different states. You’re going around to do a specific thing for amusement. I want to enjoy the journey we took to get there. Every step helps lead us to the end.
So I appreciate every moment of the journey, because it’ll never happen again…
After hearing that from you I died a little inside… But thinking about it, if I really did die inside, then what’s left behind? A new person I would guess, because I’m still here even though I’m not. Yea I don’t get it either haha! I want to say I love you. But that’ll only hurt me in the end. I respect you deeply, and trust you.
You’re someone who inspires me and drives me to the next level. I want to be a person you can say you’re proud to know. So if I can get you to look at me just a bit more, then I’ve already won. Just a bit more, I just want a bit more.
This whole… Situation has driven me insane.
Who cares, just keep doing you. Things are always going to bring you down ya know? So why dwell on it, because you’ll only be wasting your time. Time you could be using to do something else.
To be dancing, to be partying, to be out and about you know? Just have fun, because you don’t want to be depressed all the time.
I hate this so much, so very much. I’m so trouble, and its killing me. Even if I stood in front of you, even if my mouth opened… Nothing changes! No words come out, my thoughts stay put. I’m tormented by my own inability to share my pain. I’m childish, and weak. You know I don’t care. Yea, people can judge me. Yea, I’m sad. I think of suicide, and I do stupid things. I don’t care, because none of you do anyways.
How are you feeling? HAHAHAHAHA. I’m going insane, and its not fun. These thoughts of mine are slowly twisting and turning. It only took so much to push me over the edge…
Life was looking up you know? It was nice, it was fun, it was pretty easy to forget about everything. But even then you just randomly come in and destroy my integrity. Did you want to make me feel like shit, cause that’s what you’ve accomplished. Well done, anything else you’d like? I’m already down so why would it matter if I get hit a few more times. You’ve gotten me so perplexed to the point where I’m just repeating “I don’t know” everywhere.
I feel ugly, because I have no power in this situation. I’m not even going to bother… I’m just going to stop altogether, it’ll be the best thing to do for you.
Thank you, for destroying my sanctuary. I hope you’re happy trampling on my holy-land like that. I mean what’sit to yah? I don’t regret a thing, but there’s a lot of pain in a place where I used to feel love and its driving me insane. I don’t know anymore… I just don’t know.
